Choices

Last year I was in prayer for God's will on a very difficult issue. Oh, that wonderful Father, He steadied His hand on me and said "Wait." I find myself in another precarious position, once again telling God that I want His will. If you know me, you know I have a stress disorder that causes seizures if I get too overloaded. If you don't know me, well, now you know. Here I am, trying so hard not to over think, or get too anxious, because let's face it, when has a hospital bill or losing a driver's license helped anyone. My mom just looks at me and says "Jen, this is where faith comes in." Yes, Mom it is. When I was younger, ahem, 21 ish, I prayed fervently about my situation, I stressed and allowed fear and anxiety to rule my heart and mind and refused to believe what Veggietales had taught me (no not that veggie pirates are lazy) but that "God is bigger than the Boogeyman!" I am standing here, looking over the edge of uncertainty, looking for a bridge, or a rope swing, or even a guy with a helicopter, knowing that I'm just going to have to jump. This time, I refuse to take my eyes from the Lord. I refuse to even entertain for a minute that I am in this alone. I refuse to stress over it. Every time I have tried to take over, every time I take the reigns from the Lord, I end up in a rut. On my knees crying out, "Lord, help me get out of this awful mess I made!" Here I am once again running at the edge of uncertainty, just as fast as I can, because I know He'll be there to catch me. Maybe at the bottom, maybe in the middle, or just maybe, this time, He'll help me learn to fly. I am who God say I am. I can be who God says I can be.
Also, I quickly want to appeal to my brothers and sisters for prayer for one of my cousins. They're family is experiencing something very difficult and they need all the prayers and uplifting they can get. Thank you so much.

*The Jesus Loving Princess*

*Blessed are you when men hate you, when they exclude you and insult you and reject your name as evil, because of the Son of Man. Luke 6:22 *