I'm homesick and heartsick
Lonely and sad
Sometimes I feel like
I'm not enough
No matter how much I work,
Or how much I give
I feel so dead inside
All i want is to live
I want to not be afraid
I want to fight through the pain
I want to slow my life down
I want to cry in the rain
I want to write more than some
Outdated cliches
I want to be real and loud
I want to smile in the rain.
I want to live life out loud
Stand my own ground
I want to stay strong and true
I want to fight God for You
I want to know love someday
I want to know peace and pray
I scream in my pillow
When life goes astray
It's just me and You
That much is true
I lean on Your Grace
And that see's me through
Your lift up my heart
When it's laid on the ground
You seek my heart
When I'm lost You are found
You're hide to my seek
For You I'm enough
You open me up
When I'm acting too tough
You are my rest and reserve
You're my Prince and my Crown
You're the One I rely on
When I've fallen down
Jennifer Grimm 12-29-10
A common question is "have you ever been in love?" I've always said no. I like to think i have but, love never ends. I realized that today when my heart was breaking (I'm not sure why) that I have been in love, I AM in love. My Savior loves me more than anyone could ever love me. He will NEVER let me down, NEVER give up on me, and NEVER say I am not who I am meant to be. I have what He wants for me, JOY, the JOY of knowing that while I'm not exactly happy, I am BLESSED and JOYFUL, and right where He needs me to be. Oh Lord, I love you! Sometimes I fear that my journey will always be a lonely one, and I have to remind myself that I am NEVER alone. I have one more post for tomorrow. One more bit of rambling of 2010. But, for now, I am off my shift, on my way home, ready for some much needed conversation with my God. My Love. Sleep well.
*The Jesus Loving Princess*
*Blessed are you when men hate you, when they exclude you and insult you and reject your name as evil, because of the Son of Man. Luke 6:22 *
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