Often you hear, "Finally I prayed because there was nothing left to do." I was/am guilty of not praying faithfully. Not spending that time with the Lord every day. Prayer used to be such a foreign thing to me. It was "Please God let me do good on that test tomorrow." "Please God if you help me this ONE time I promise..." and turned into "God, I'm scared, I'm done, I quit. That's okay right?" I think back on many of those times and realize that had I prayed FIRST, I'd have had His answer. I find that I make things harder on myself than they have to be. It's a matter of surrendering to God's Perfect Will and allowing Him to control our lives. I recently had a situation where I knew what I wanted and I prayed for it. More than that I prayed that He have His way and help remind me to surrender and obey. I still struggle with this subject, and He knows, I love it when God answers me, even if it's a "No" or "Wait". When people ask how I know there is a God it's fun to explain "Because He always answers me when I pray." I, also, used to struggle with prayer out loud. I always felt like I was being judged on it or that it was a test of my faith. Christian version of the SAT. I have a friend who used to pray with me daily, and while I still felt unsure, I managed to pray out loud a few times. The thing is, I feel so insignificant in the grand scheme of things that I feel selfish, like I'm taking up His time with my piddly little ramblings. When I'm with Him, though, I feel as if I'm with my best friend and could talk for hours. "Did you see the goal our daughter kicked today God? She's becoming quite the little athlete. Oh, and thank you for the flowers that bloomed outside my door today it was amazing to see color first thing in the morning and they reminded me of you. And did I tell you that I think I may be in love? Any influence you have would be appreciated Lord." I have learned to be careful of what I pray for. I asked my friend to pray that I have more patience in my job once, and he said, "Be careful Jen." Turns out the Lord likes challenges and has a mighty sense of humor. When I pray for patience, because I don't think I have any left, sometimes my Awesome Father allows my situation to become a little more difficult and shows me that I have more than I thought. He is flawless in His parenting skills. I'm learning to be more diligent in my prayers,taking the time to talk to Him and thank Him and be reverent and loving. Prayer is my tin can stretched to Heaven on a wire. "Dad, can you hear me from this far away?"
*The Jesus Loving Princess*
*Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.
Proverbs 3:5*
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